pb&j's

Today makes something like a year and slight change since I reconnected to who may hysterically be my soul mate and best friend for years to come. His being is far from perfect but so dear to me. We have an admiration for one another and what one lacks the other surpasses in what should be attained. His virtues and discipline reflect what I only can become. I speak for the both of us when I say we are lulled in love. Speak for two I do because my love is very thoughtful and expresses himself in silence (whereas needless to say I am unbounded in my expressions). But it is a surprising love, the one where you don't expect to fall in love because you we not looking nor interested in filling your head and heart with such sensitive emotions.

Today I know how whimsical love really is. I know how sweet it taste, like a vanilla ice cream topped with plentiful candies and where the chocolate syrup drizzles down to my chin. I know how to share laughter and how to speak in order to effectively get your message across. I know how to pick apart a brain who picks at mine as well to the point of silence with no verbal retaliation. We know how to feed off of the others gift and use ourselves in a lovely dedication.


Making it work involves the cooperation of two or more things, let that be a relationship within yourself or with someone else, like paper and glue and having it stick. Simple. One should be clean and neat, flat and porous while the other would be messy, sticky and just all over the place getting into every crevasse.

But are all relationships based on paper, where we can trace and cut along? No. I fear not. We are all humans and have experienced things differently and walked down strange paths on our own. There are places we fear to revisit for some and others who constantly live in their own muddy footprints unwilling to create new ones, afraid for what is to come.

Some live it and never look back, some live it and can never move on.

We must compromise and accept that nothing is perfect and our relationships are not different. They take time, effort and patience. Find it from within you.